I claim tomorrow as my first mother's day. Even though last year was technically the first year we had both the boys and Ilse, it was a day filled with uncertainty, fear, drama, sadness, loneliness, pain, and many other emotions that I don't care to remember as my first mother's day.
This year, on the other hand, we are all home as a family. We have our two precious boys and we have the Ilse. We know Ilse is doing well. She isn't having seizures so we don't have to worry about that. We know our sons are happy, healthy, and home.
I don't know that I will ever be able to enjoy mother's day wholly.... there are many things to remember abut the past many years of infertility pain. There are too many other women hurting for me to glory much in a day where the very name hurts to hear.
BUT I am going to enjoy being with the little family God has given me. I am going to enjoy the three precious blessings who bring me joy every single day.
I thank the Good Lord for them.